What does it actually mean to feel safe with another person?

In this episode of Holy Ground & Messy Hands, I’m exploring safety beyond physical protection—emotional, mental, spiritual, physical, and sexual safety—and how our experiences can shape what safety feels like in our bodies and relationships.

We talk about trauma, trust, boundaries, vulnerability, accountability, intimacy, and the difference between someone loving you and someone actually knowing how to be safe for you.

But this conversation isn’t only about identifying the people who feel safe or unsafe.

Eventually, the question turns inward:

Am I a safe person?

Because maybe safety is found not only in God as our ultimate refuge, but also in the people who have learned to love us in ways that resemble Him—through truth, consistency, gentleness, protection, freedom, accountability, and presence.

And maybe the prayer isn’t only, “God, give me safe people.”

Maybe it’s also:

God, make me one.

Content note: This episode includes discussion of sexual assault, physical abuse, trauma, and sexual boundaries.

Suffering is something every one of us will face, but very few of us are ever taught what it actually means to suffer well.

Does suffering well mean pretending you’re okay? Never asking questions? Smiling through the pain? Having stronger faith?

In this episode, we open Scripture and wrestle with one of the hardest questions I’ve ever asked:

What does it actually mean to suffer well?

Together we’ll look at Job, David, and Jesus in Gethsemane to discover that biblical suffering isn’t about pretending pain doesn’t exist—it’s about bringing our whole hearts to Jesus in the middle of it.

If you’re exhausted…

If you’re grieving…

If you’re waiting…

If your prayers feel unanswered…

I hope this conversation reminds you that Jesus never promised we’d never suffer.

He promised we’d never suffer alone.

Scripture referenced:

• ​Job
• ​Selected Psalms of David
• ​Matthew 26 (Gethsemane)
• ​John 16:33

Holy Ground & Messy Hands

Where God meets us in the middle.

Have you ever felt like you had to explain yourself just so people would understand your heart?

This episode started with a simple thirty-second conversation in Nashville that unexpectedly became a much bigger lesson.

We’re talking about over-explaining, discernment, healthy boundaries, healing, and learning that not everyone is meant to have access to every part of what God is doing in your life.

There’s a difference between accountability and interrogation.

There’s a difference between transparency and access.

And sometimes the most mature thing we can do is let people misunderstand us while continuing to obey God.

If you’ve ever felt exhausted trying to defend your convictions, explain your healing, or prove your heart posture, I hope this episode reminds you that God already knows the whole story—from beginning to end.

And sometimes…

that has to be enough.

Because messy hands still build holy things.

Have you ever felt like you’re doing everything “right”—praying, reading your Bible, trying to obey God—and somehow life feels harder than before?

In this episode, I share what the last few weeks have looked like for me: sleepless nights, old wounds resurfacing, difficult questions, and learning the difference between bringing pain to God and actually trying to heal with Him.

We talk about life after baptism, spiritual growth, God’s discipline, and what happens when God starts changing the parts of us we’d rather keep hidden.

If you’re in a season where healing hurts, where obedience feels difficult, or where God seems to be bringing old things back to the surface, this episode is for you.

Maybe this is what healing while walking with God actually looks like—not perfection, not having all the answers, but continuing to trust Him anyway.

Scripture Referenced:

• ​Proverbs 3:5–6
• ​Proverbs 3:11–12
• ​Romans 12:19

Lately, I haven’t felt confused… just resistant.

This episode is probably the most honest one yet.

We’re talking about delayed obedience, flesh vs Spirit, comfort becoming an idol, grieving old versions of ourselves, and what it feels like when God is asking you to surrender deeper than you expected.

Because sometimes the hardest part isn’t hearing God.

It’s knowing exactly what He’s asking… and still hesitating.

James 4:17, Romans 7, Galatians 5:17, Peter stepping onto the water, the tension between old comfort and new obedience… all of it collided in this conversation.

Maybe conviction isn’t condemnation.

Maybe it’s mercy.

And maybe obedience starts with finally stopping our resistance to what God already made clear.

Welcome back to Holy Ground & Messy Hands.

Too much. Too deep. Too different. Or maybe just growing.

Lately I’ve been realizing that the more I choose God, the more things around me start changing.

The support changes. Relationships change. Boundaries change. And suddenly people are confused when you don’t want the same things you used to.

In this episode, I talk about feeling lonely without being alone, struggling with obedience, wanting deeper relationships, feeling like “too much,” and learning how to be content with where God has me while still believing He has more for me.

Because maybe lonely doesn’t always mean wrong.

Maybe sometimes it just means you’re finally leaving behind the things that were never meant to come with you.

Growth is weird because just because you’re healing doesn’t mean old thoughts, fears, or insecurities disappear overnight.

In this episode, I talk about overthinking, old patterns, healthy love, needing reassurance, trusting God, and what it looks like to still be in the middle of growth.

Because sometimes growth isn’t loud. Sometimes it’s choosing not to react, learning how to pause before running, and trusting God when your mind is telling you ten different stories.

And maybe growth isn’t that the thoughts stop coming…

maybe it’s that they stop controlling you the way they used to.

You know that feeling when everything makes sense…

but something in you just won’t settle?

I don’t think it’s confusion.

I think it’s awareness.

And sometimes… we avoid it.

In this episode, I’m talking about the tension between what feels right and what actually is right. The difference between compatibility and alignment. What conviction really feels like. And what it looks like to delay obedience—even when you know exactly what God is asking of you.

Because not everything that feels good is meant to be kept.

And at some point, you have to stop asking God for clarity…

and start responding to what He already said.

It’s Holy Week… and if I’m being honest, God has felt quiet.

In this episode, I’m not coming with answers—just honesty.

I talk through what it feels like to feel distant from God,

the weight of saying no to Him,

and the tension of trying to come back when you don’t feel ready.

Growth doesn’t erase history…

but grace meets you in it.

This isn’t about having it all figured out.

It’s about choosing to come back anyway.

If you’ve ever felt disconnected, unsure, or stuck in the middle—

you’re not alone in that.

What does it actually mean to become a woman of God?

Not the aesthetic version.

Not the polished version people post online.

But the real, raw version.

In this episode, we talk about what it looks like to be formed by God — not through performance, but through transformation.

From sanctification and spiritual maturity to integrity, identity, and the moments where you feel like you’re falling short… this is about the slow, often unseen work God is doing in your life.

Because the truth is…

you don’t have to be perfect to be growing.

Messy hands still build holy things.