Is there a way for leaders to make things right after causing real harm?

In this episode of Holy Uncertain, hosts Lauren Ranzino and Chris McLeod are joined by Joshua Harris, author of I Kissed Dating Goodbye, to reflect on purity culture, the damage it caused, and what it looks like to confront the consequences of ideas that shaped an entire generation.

Together, they talk about the shame, fear, and distorted theology that purity culture embedded in so many of us—and what happens when a leader begins to listen to the people harmed by their work. Josh shares the long, uneasy process of rethinking his beliefs, stepping away from systems that rewarded certainty, and trying to respond with honesty rather than defensiveness.

This conversation doesn’t offer easy closure. Instead, it explores repentance as something slower, costlier, and more complicated than simply a public apology.

If you’ve ever wondered whether repair is possible after real harm has been done, this episode offers a thoughtful place to begin.

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Clear & Loud with Josh Harris

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Are you finding it hard to call yourself a Christian right now—even if you still love Jesus? What do you do when people who share your faith carry beliefs that feel impossible to reconcile?

In this episode of Holy Uncertain, Lauren Ranzino and Chris McLeod are joined by writer and journalist Sara Billups to explore how to navigate ideological and theological differences without defaulting to cutting people off—or shutting down curiosity.

Sara reflects on how fear-based frameworks from the 80s and 90s shaped so many of us, from rapture narratives and “Left Behind” anxiety to the way politics and religion have become tangled in the American church. Together, they talk about how these inherited theologies still live in our bodies and our communities—and how we can examine them honestly without losing each other.

If you’ve ever felt torn between conviction and connection, this episode offers thoughtful language for the way forward.

Continue to learn from Sara Billups:
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Instagram: @sara.billups
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Nervous Systems: Spiritual Practices to Calm Anxiety in Your Body, the Church, and Politics
Orphaned Believers: How a Generation of Christian Exiles Can Find the Way Home

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At some point, the question shifts. It’s no longer just: What do I believe? It becomes something deeper and more personal: Do I stay Christian?

In this episode of Holy Uncertain, hosts Chris McLeod and Lauren Ranzino are joined by author, speaker, and theologian Brian McLaren to explore what it means to be a Christian and look at a faith tradition that has, at times, caused real harm or disappointment. Brian discusses the tension between belonging and integrity, doubt and commitment, and the complicated work of deciding whether to stay, leave, or redefine what staying even means.

Rather than offering a formula or final answer, this conversation examines the cost and courage involved in each path.

What does it look like to remain connected to Christianity without denying its failures? And how do we discern whether staying is an act of faithfulness – or fear? This episode offers language, perspective, and a thoughtful way to sit with these questions.

Continue to learn from Brian McLaren: www.brianmclaren.net
Center for Action and Contemplation: https://cac.org/

Listen to Brian’s podcast: Learning How to See

Read Brian’s Books:
Do I Stay Christian?: A Guide for the Doubters, the Disappointed, and the Disillusioned
Faith After Doubt: Why Your Beliefs Stopped Working and What to Do About It
and MANY MORE here.

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How often have you been told that the Bible is clear—only to feel confused, unsettled, or even harmed by the way it’s been taught or used?

In this episode of Holy Uncertain, hosts Lauren Ranzino and Chris McLeod are joined by pastor, author, and co-founder of the Post-Evangelical Collective, Zach Lambert, to discuss how we might engage Scripture as a tool of healing rather than a weapon of harm.

Together, they explore how interpretation is shaped by different lenses—and why questioning the way we’ve learned to read the Bible doesn’t have to mean abandoning it. Instead, they consider how faithful engagement can begin with re-examination and, at times, unlearning.

If reading the Bible has ever felt confusing, harmful, or disconnected from the life you’re trying to live, this episode offers a steadier path forward.

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Better Ways to Read the Bible

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How many times have you asked Jesus into your heart? In this episode of Holy Uncertain, we turn to a question many of us thought we already knew the answer to: What is the gospel?
Joined by theologian, activist, and author Lisa Sharon Harper, hosts Lauren Ranzino and Chris McLeod explore how familiar definitions of “the good news” can feel insufficient when we’re facing real grief, suffering, and injustice.

This conversation holds space for honesty about doubt and pain, while Lisa shares a broader, more rooted vision of hope—one that isn’t just something we believe, but something we live out through our care for one another and the world around us.

If you’ve ever wondered whether the gospel was meant to be more than a ticket into heaven, then this episode is for you.

Continue to learn from Lisa Sharon Harper:
www.LisaSharonHarper.com
Instagram: @lisasharonharper
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Read Lisa’s incredible books:
The Very Good Gospel
Fortune: How Race Broke My Family and the World--and How to Repair It All
And MANY MORE here.

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In this first episode of Holy Uncertain, you’re invited into an honest conversation about doubt, belief, and the tension so many of us carry when faith no longer feels simple. Whether you’ve spent your whole life in the church, stepped away entirely, or are somewhere in between, this episode names a reality many people experience but rarely talk about out loud.

You’ll hear from hosts Lauren Ranzino and Chris McLeod on why this podcast exists, how it came to be, and why uncertainty isn’t a failure of faith—but often the beginning of something deeper.

If you’ve ever felt alone in your questions, this episode reminds you that you’re not—and that wrestling with belief can be a meaningful, even sacred, part of the journey.

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