This episode I am going to be talking about a huge road block I've had in my personal faith walk. I am going confess my story and show you how the Most High still continues to extend His mercy even when I cant see the blessing for only seeing brokenness. The Most High began to talk to me through my last Shabbat class. Although this is coming from a spiritual point of view.....and you may not have an active spiritual life or a different way of faith..........I am still addressing issues I have of being a very strong force on the outside but behind closed doors.......having fear and confusion and low self esteem issues concerning my drug life and how it affected my relationship with my children even right now. The time where I almost turned to prostitution DURNING my faith walk and how low self esteem issues concerning how my weightloss journey has left me broken and also address how my physical appearance as far as being desired by a man and how not dealing with but by embracing the victimization stance it has manifest in self destructive behaviors that worked against me and the struggle to face my demons and find renewal and perspective and somehow peace within that only comes from my restoration with ABBA.