When you're still associating painful thoughts about yourself, to the actions, words, or behaviors of others, then it's time to heal the way you're seeing yourself.
You've created associations of your worth to the way others reacted or treated you, since you were a kid. Creating negative narratives in the way you see and treat yourself because you believed you should in order to feel accepted, loved, wanted, or belonging.
But these associations have remained with you as an adult and it shows in the way your trauma narratives take over when you're feeling triggered. But it's possible to change these associations and finally start seeing yourself as the true, lovable, worthy, and valued person you truly are!