For 5 long years, the author Dee Delaney struggles to make sense of her life as she pushes, the dark shadows of grief that weave their way into the fabric of her very being, until one day she stops everything and surrenders.

In this honest, raw and sometimes humorous account, Dee explains how she finds the way back through the richness of Eastern spirituality, and the wisdom of Western psychotherapy. As he realizes this suffering didn’t happen to her, it happened for her, and her ‘ordinary’ life is trans leaves her comfortable middle class life in England and starts a new life for herself where she discovers that her story is really only just beginning……..