I haven't made a video in about a week or so because I've been really busy with work but then what happens as the amount of stuff I write that I want to talk to myself about really piles up so I have a bunch to catch up on and also i'm probably going to start with what i've seen most recently and then work backwards i'm also going to try to start standing up because i am spending quite a lot of time doing this so it's better to stand as sitting is one of the leading causes of death even when i was editing my last videos i was walking in the park while editing and it probably makes me look like one of those people that just has their face in their phone but at least I'm among the trees I'm sort of working but among the trees and and also i need to keep the videos a bit shorter i noticed if they're about 10 minutes shorter they upload a lot faster and also if they go to the cloud before i edit them they should be easier to get out of the cloud if i don't make such long videos but i just keep talking and talking and talking and the point of my videos is there for myself really their self dialogue I don't have anyone to come and do open dialogue with me so it's just self dialogue and it's mainly for the purpose of unfolding context and making sense of my experiences and also sharing the insights and the extrapolations that I feel that I see I'm up to 58 videos on the playlist i'm creating and i feel like i barely scratched the surface of what i want to talk to myself about yesterday i went to an event put on by the hearing voices group in my area and i never gone to a group like that before but I had a feeling it would resonate with me to some extent as its voices and visions I've even seen a group called voices visions and extraordinary experiences if a person has visions that sort of implies that there's somewhat of a visionary perhaps and I identify with being a bit of a visionary sometimes what was exciting about the group was that they had two presenters speaking about their experience going to the hearing voices Congress in Paris France and they were two people that work in the mental health system that weren't voice hearers but in their position they work with people that your voices as well as I feel they they also have hearing voices group that they may or may not support that in terms of actually work in they support the group that's why they went to the conference but I was really blown away by their presentation because they gave a summary of four of the speakers that they went to see and everything that they said was related to everything that I've been researching in the last two years and it's more along the lines of the story that I choose to tell myself but I haven't really spoken out about except to myself on these videos for the most part and that was the point of me speaking on these videos so I have someone to talk to about it and give voice to it and not just keep it inside and so I was really pleasantly surprised by the fact that these two people that work in the system were sharing their perspective on what they learned at this conference as if they were somebody with lived experience in that they completely understood for the most part what it was that the presenters were saying what they were trying to illustrate and the things they shared were quite amazing and not surprising him that I didn't already sort of have those realizations myself but to hear people that work in the system who don't have lived experience saying these things plus they're going to be meeting with people this month and or next month and next year and they're going to actually hold a conference in my city regarding stuff related to it and they're kind of saying who should we invite to speak and then so I'm thinking wow this is totally amazing that this kind of conversation is going to start to happen around here and I just found it really interesting that it's sort of the same timing like I made a blog post that said something al