Stop to consider that when Peter denies Jesus just before his crucifixion, it's out of fear that he never really knew Jesus the way he thought he did. A big part of Peter's journey has been rethinking what God is doing in the world. Maybe there is something to be gained by allowing the tension to exist in our faith– that wresting with your faith isn't just allowed, but invited. We are left with two important questions: What does it really mean to deny Jesus and are there any versions of Jesus I have been taught that need to die?