This one runs deeper.

In this extended episode, I open up about my lifelong battle with emotional numbing—how I used alcohol, weed, silence, and self-sacrifice to survive what I couldn’t face. But survival isn’t living. And eventually, even sedation loses its power.

I speak on my journey through the Nurturing Fathers class, the poem I wrote in Week 6, and the moment I realized I was still carrying a little boy inside who just wanted to be chosen.

I honor the man who gave me his name when no one else would.

I confront the truth about my mother, my past, and my pain.

And I finally choose presence over pretending.

This isn’t just about sobriety.

It’s about becoming whole—without apology.