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Host: RareRuby - https://www.instagram.com/sparerarepodcast/ <> https://www.instagram.com/rareruby86/ 

First, apologies for the late release, and know this episode may be a bit long. This week marks round four as my mom heals from C-19. GOD. Prayers were also requested for my son and I as well this past week, thank you all.

Why did you choose the songs?  

Yes, I am aware Stevie is referring to the birth of Aisha, however, sometimes there are stewards of the community or the church, grandparents, family, even the births of our sons where we may feel that same joy of new birth or acceptance, maybe approval. Speaking to this person...is the emotion you’d feel when you see that person you would be ashamed to tell you’ve sinned but tears are just flowing because they have always been your comfort. I talk about my “hood” upbringing a lot. Don’t get me wrong yes I had my choir director from the church as my elementary school principal but I also witnessed so many drug deals, deaths, I said that hell nah my son doesn’t need to fight it. She and several others used to help my Grandma get us to church, to school events, church competitions, etc. even when she passed we were scattered all across town, they still tried their best to keep us together. When I came back here I went back to her because I needed the connection but also because I knew I may not make it through without losing myself. I saw her name on my phone a few days back, I cried because no matter the amount of good I do I will always feel guilt because I have yet to personally hear from God that my heart is in the right direction. I didn’t have the strength to speak on! I was in tears receiving the call I couldn’t make. Not that there’s beef it’s more to do so with I have disappointed them. One more mentor, grandma that was of no relation by human DNA that loved me and helped me when I was a child. My childhood was NOT easy, not many are. They had their own children, their own lives. Trust, I have tons of people that question why am I a daughter, a sister, but not them, never her. Also, the death of my cousin Ieshia C. has always stung.

Thanks to A Turtle's Tale for putting Bruno's song in my ear. God put the others!!

Which songs did you choose?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZMsvwwp6S7Q - Count On Me by Bruno Mars 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uPBvq7yewIk - Isn't She Lovely by Stevie Wonder

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WAPtTz5OGWs - I Love You, Lord by Benita Jones

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PWsvZfGVYJM - I Love You, Lord by Walter Hawkins

Please specify the lyrics that motivated you:

Isn't she lovely: All of them.

I Love You, Lord: All of them.

Count On Me: All of them.

The following topics may stem from the song: