and just like that

i opened my eyes different one day

to see a world that I had been living

drift and fade

into a darkness that no longer belonged to me

my eye-lids blinked

to see it again

to witness if I was really seeing what my eyes took in

and I knew

with each blink

that I had awoken to a world where I was no longer living in fear of who I was

i no longer was exhausting myself

spinning myself in circles

dizzying my consciousness in order to fit into the spot I thought the world had crafted for me

and rather,

i became awake to who I’d been before the world got ahold of my brokenness attempting to fit me back into a space that was not for me, but rather for a completeness to a puzzle that embodied sameness all around

i woke up one day and saw that each and every piece next to me, was exactly the same

walked the same

talked the same

wore the same shoes

and I saw, while at the core of our beating hearts we were all one,

but the sameness of our outer appearance had made us forget that the oneness beating in our chests was how we stayed connected, not how we looked and talked and dressed and what we said to those we knew

i saw that our puzzle pieces were not us

they were mirages of who the world had tried to make us into

to keep us still

keep us quiet

so I ripped myself away

and it didn’t hurt

and the world saw that I was missing

but god watched me come home

so effortlessly

so wildly in love

with the world my eyes now saw

when I blinked them open yet again

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