I Think I Get It Now

who knew affirmations could still be perfectionism in a cute little outfit? not me!

in this episode, i talk about affirmations, ego, self-acceptance, and why telling myself “i’m perfect” never helped me as much as telling myself “i’m still worthy when i’m not.”

who knew “let it go” sometimes just meant “your feelings are making me uncomfortable”? not me!

in this episode, i unpack why letting go used to trigger me so much, why emotional expression matters, and how actually feeling your feelings might be the only real way to release them.

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who knew resentment could be comfortable? unfortunately, me.

listen to me unpack forgiveness, revenge, perfectionism, and why learning to let go might actually start with accepting that i’m not perfect either.

check me out on @sarahboakyex on IG and @crystille at TikTok

who knew i wasn't inconsistent... i was just scared? not me!

listen to me talk through my lifelong struggle with consistency and hear me realize that maybe the problem was never motivation after all. maybe showing up over and over again means allowing yourself to be seen before you feel ready.

check me out on @sarahboakyex on IG and @crystille at TikTok

who knew taking initiative meant accidentally becoming responsible for 222 people? not me!

listen to me talk about building a community from the ground up, why i resisted calling myself a leader for so long, and how hardship has a funny way of forcing you to figure out what you actually stand for.

check me out on @sarahboakyex on IG and @crystille at TikTok

who knew i was a reader this whole time? not me!

listen to me give n unpaid promotion for my kindle while I clean my room, yap about fanfiction and unpack why i thought i hated reading when i actually just needed a softer, slower way back into it.

check me out on @sarahboakyex on IG and @crystille at TikTok

who knew that being “hard to understand” actually means you are complex in a simple world? not me!

listen to me talk through what it’s like to grow up feeling misunderstood, how that turned into self-doubt, and that my love language is not actually one of the five we've all heard of. it's being understood.

also i have a community for black girls in the netherlands! check it out @bbnl.collective on IG and TikTok!

who knew victim mentality was basically just a mix of nasty affirmations and microdosed sadness? certainly not me!

listen to me unravel what it means to be a victim, and swear my way towards resolution. trigger warning: i might be oversimplifying things, so be weary!

who knew that anger didn't have to be destructive? not me!

listen to me talk about the discovery of my anger as if i am columbus. in the sense that i am claiming to have found something new which has, in fact, always just been there.

nothing too crazy, just the second bit of what it is to be comfortable.

listen to what i do to get comfy, why i was ashamed to be comfortable and why emotional space is so important for me to feel at ease