You think you’ll feel nothing but joy when you lose weight and the jeans finally fit.

But what if you feel… terrified?

In this first episode, I talk about what really happens when you lose almost 200 pounds and your body changes faster than your brain can catch up.

Trying on size 8 jeans should’ve felt like a victory—but I was scared.

Scared they wouldn’t fit. And scared they would.

This isn’t a podcast about how to lose weight. It’s about what no one prepares you for when you do. The identity lag. The emotional backlash. The grief.

If you’ve ever secretly hoped the new clothes wouldn’t fit—so you could stay safe—this episode is for you.