This poem is really a wrap up of what I’ve been learning within myself. There’s so much beauty I’ve closed myself off to that I’ve rediscovered in myself that it’s both surprised and nurtured me to a degree that I felt called to share this with you all. I feel myself changing everyday. I no longer feel the heaviness I used to carry with me most days. I feel so much lighter and free, like I’m really becoming a better part of me. (That rhymed, stay droppin bars.) In reality my recovery has been nothing short of painful and amazing. I realized that I’ve been so hurt and traumatized and there’s nothing to be ashamed of about those things. I struggled with confronting my inner demons because I truly didn’t know most of them were there, some of which I’ve discovered aren’t even my own. Some of those demons were put there by people I thought loved me (which has also been painful to know were lies) and me having to confront my past has been one of the most scariest things in my life, but I’m really fed up with running and being afraid of something I can control. I’m glad I’ve come to terms with it all despite the freaking chaos it’s putting me through. A new me is emerging and I want to see her. I want to give my true self a chance. © All Rights Reserved