i'm tired of trying to fit myself into a box. i'm tired of editing reels with tons of short, 0.1-second videos and then adding a trending audio that it took me hours to find. i'm tired of all of these stupid videos filling up and cluttering my camera roll. i'm tired of my hands hurting because of how hard i grip my phone when i film a video to make sure it's not shaky. i'm tired of everything on social media looking the same and feeling fake. why are we all forcing ourselves to pretend we live perfectly curated, aesthetic lives when that couldn't be farther from the truth? is anyone even happy anymore? idk this might just be one big self projection. who really knows?

and this is all coming from someone who has always loved aesthetic, romanticized moments. it all just feels like overkill. it's too much of one thing. it feels like the joy is being sucked out of everything...