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What starts as a rapid-fire game (chaotic snacks, loud walking, haunted-house ghosts with a sense of humour) opens into a deeper conversation about growth, marriage, leadership, friendship, and the kind of self-honesty that Inner Rebel is known for. 

Melissa reflects on a season of big transition — shedding what no longer fits, learning to lead without abandoning her softness, healing long-held stories about intimacy, and discovering what it actually means to be fully seen by the people who matter most. Jess shares her own edges: new love, new levels of honesty, and the uncomfortable beauty of letting someone mirror the parts of you you’ve tried to hide.

It’s a finale filled with levity, tenderness, permission slips, personal revelations, fake poop pranks, inner toddlers having meltdowns, creative pivots, and an unexpected amount of wisdom about what it means to grow up spiritually, relationally, and professionally — without losing the joy or the weird.

IN THIS EPISODE:

• Rapid-fire questions: chaotic snacks, ghost pranks, musical bed routines
• The levity we forget to bring into our personal growth
• Learning to be a CEO without burning out or living in chaos
• The difference between implosions and proactive change
• Intimacy in long-term partnership: taking walls down after years of defense
• Religious conditioning, belonging, and being the “black sheep” in your family
• Honesty, mirroring, and being deeply seen in relationship
• Visibility, vulnerability, and sharing publicly 
• Tiny things that shift everything (ear piercings, rituals, play)
• Parenting, silliness, and the parts of us only our families see
• Why fun and levity matter in deep work and leadership
• What we learned this season — and our vision for Season 3
• Our “Snoop Dogg acceptance speeches” and the art of self-celebration

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In this wildly honest and unexpectedly hilarious episode, we sit down with four-time Emmy-nominated TV producer, PR strategist, and professional truth-teller Erin Saxton — a woman whose inner rebel is not “inner” at all.

What begins as a conversation about career, reinvention, and authenticity quickly turns into a masterclass on self-awareness, courage, and the messy, tender, deeply human work of becoming yourself. Erin shares the story behind her 100-pound weight loss, the inner voices she had to meet along the way, and the surprising rituals (including alarms in the pantry and silent retreats where she’s not allowed to make friends) that helped her rebuild trust with herself from the inside out.

We explore what it really means to lead — in business, in branding, in visibility, and in your own life. Erin reveals the “velvet steamroller” gift she honed under Barbara Walters, why confidence can coexist with anxiety, and how our sharpest gifts often turn inward as our greatest struggles.

This conversation is honest, disarming, laugh-out-loud funny, and deeply affirming for anyone navigating identity, self-trust, visibility, or the uncomfortable edges of personal transformation.

• The inner rebel as leadership: courage, honesty, and discomfort
• Weight, self-trust & the long game of rebuilding your inner world
• Using structure, accountability, and self-awareness to change your life
• The “turtle” metaphor: sticking your neck out to move forward
• Anxiety, autopilot, and the ways we all dissociate
• Why confidence can mask internal chaos
• The art of asking hard questions (Barbara Walters style)
• Authenticity vs branding — and how to know the difference
• Calling bullshit with love
• Imposter syndrome in visibility & leadership
• Marketing as sleight-of-hand: what’s honest, what’s strategy

Connect with Erin Saxton

Instagram: @saxtonerin — https://www.instagram.com/saxtonerin/
Website: The Erin Network — https://www.theerinnetwork.com/

Episode edited by Shoshana Wilder.

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This isn’t another Human Design 101. In this profound and provocative conversation, Melissa flips the mic toward Jessica Rose—Inner Rebel co-host, Human Design expert, and Deconditioning Coach—to explore beyond the buzzwords of Human Design and into the transformative—and often confronting—work of living it. What follows is a deep excavation of identity and illusion: how deconditioning means confronting the stories you’ve believed about who you are.

From the stories we tell ourselves to the ones shaping the world, Jess and Melissa explore how deconditioning isn’t just personal work—it’s how we dismantle the collective fictions that fuel everything from self-abandonment to global conflict. They illuminate how trusting the body over the mind becomes the ultimate rebellion in a world addicted to certainty, how following your “joy breadcrumbs” leads you home to purpose, and how our greatest fears aren’t obstacles but doorways into who we’re becoming. Intimate, philosophical, and fiercely honest, this episode is a masterclass in the art of waking up.

Topics Covered

• The true purpose of Human Design
• What “deconditioning” actually means and asks of us
• The radical rebellion of listening to your body over your mind
• How to recognize the difference between your body's actual YES and the guilt-driven yes you've been conditioned to give
• Why we “agree to be crazy together”: exploring the collective fictions that shape our lives
• The shadows and gifts in your chart (and why your biggest fears are actually portals to your genius)
• The illusion of control and the cultural addiction to certainty
• The reason why “following your strategy and authority” will change your life
• The radical act of following your body’s yes and no in a world that glorifies over-efforting
• The importance of Human Design in team dynamics

To Connect with Jess:
To book a Human Design reading or dive deeper into deconditioning work, visit bydesignwithjess.com or follow Jess on Instagram at @bydesignwithjess.

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What if performance, health, and leadership all come down to one thing: safety in your body? In this transformative episode, nervous system specialist and founder of Lumera Leadership Lab Carrie Montgomery breaks down how regulation—not force—is the true foundation of resilience and power. We explore how trauma imprints affect our capacity, why nervous system work is the missing link in healing and business, and how you can start rewiring your system with simple, science-backed practices. Carrie’s story of surviving medical trauma and rebuilding her life from the inside out is a powerful testament to what’s possible when we stop pushing—and start listening.

Topics:

• Nervous system regulation 101
• Somatics + applied neurology
• Burnout, illness, and the collapse before clarity
• Wealth and capacity
• Codependency + fawning
• Creating internal safety
• Redefining power and leadership
• Building resilience through the body

Learn more about Carrie’s work at carriemontgomery.com or connect with her on Instagram at @realcarriemontgomery

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What happens when the person who's spent decades getting everyone else ready for the spotlight finally steps into it herself?

In this powerful and tender conversation, we sit down with journalist, bestselling ghostwriter, and media coach Linya Floyd—who’s spent decades helping other people shine—to talk about what happens when it’s finally your turn to take the stage.

From a behind-the-scenes media career to a long-delayed pitch that changed everything, Linya shares her story of becoming visible in a whole new way—while caregiving, grieving, growing, and learning to tell the truth about who she is and what she wants. She reflects on the evolution from performance to presence, the quiet fear of being truly seen, and the sacred space required to let our stories come alive.

TOPICS WE EXPLORE:

• What it really means to be seen
• Performance identity vs. true presence
• Visibility fears (and what we’re actually afraid of)
• Why your story matters more than you think
• The courage to stop hiding (even behind success)
• Vulnerability as a gateway to connection
• The slow, sacred timing of creative becoming
• Support vs. self-sufficiency: why you don’t need to do it alone
• The 5-second rule that changes everything

Linea's Oprah Daily Article: "What I Learned From My 10-Year Dating Gap" - The vulnerable personal essay Linya discusses in this episode

Edited by: Shoshana Wilder

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What does your relationship with food reveal about your relationship with yourself? We sit down with functional nutritionist and food psychology specialist Sue Van Raes to explore the powerful intersection of nourishment, identity, and self-trust. We talk about emotional eating, the cultural narratives around control and discipline, and how reclaiming pleasure and intuition in how we eat can ripple into every other area of our lives. Whether you’ve struggled with food or are simply ready for a more integrated and joyful relationship with your body, this episode offers both insight and real permission.

Topics:

• Food psychology + emotional eating
• Women’s relationship with nourishment
• Stress + hormone regulation
• Nervous system patterns around food
• Reclaiming pleasure + intuitive eating
• Identity and body trust
• Healing through nourishment
• Letting go of all-or-nothing thinking

Timestamps:

00:00 Welcome and Introductions

00:25 Sue's Background and Achievements

01:02 Developing a Sacred Friendship

02:10 Exploring the Inner Rebel

06:53 Sue's Journey of Self-Discovery

08:57 Food and Emotional Well-being

22:40 Navigating Expansion and Visibility

26:53 Serendipitous Connections and Opportunities

28:39 Overcoming Podcast Nerves

29:56 Embracing Fun and Freedom in Book Launch

31:18 Slowing Down for Authentic Expansion

32:21 Questioning Limiting Beliefs

35:21 Understanding Sensations and Food Relationships

40:08 Exploring Different Types of Hunger

46:18 The Pleasure of Reminiscing

49:39 Living with Purpose and Aliveness

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In this rare and deeply honest conversation, we sit down with Jeff Salzenstein — former top-100 tennis player turned executive performance coach — for a soulful exploration of identity, grief, resilience, and the emotional reckoning that comes when success is no longer the point.

Jeff opens up about the moment he knew it was time to leave tennis, the trauma that called him into coaching, and the recent experiences that are humbling him back into his body — and back into his heart. Together, we unpack what it means to be truly seen, the edges of emotional risk that no one talks about, and the surprising places the inner rebel shows up in midlife.

This one’s for the over-functioners, the fixers, the seekers, and the late bloomers. For anyone wondering if it’s too late to change your story — or be truly seen in the one you’re already living.

00:00 Introduction and Setting the Scene

00:42 Meet Jeff Selzen Stein

01:13 Tennis Career Highlights and Challenges

01:40 The Importance of Names and Identity

04:49 Inner Rebel and Personal Growth

07:41 The Role of Creativity in Tennis

11:25 Holistic Approach to Performance

19:31 Navigating Fear and Intuition

26:14 Transitioning from Tennis to Coaching

31:13 Helping My Brother's Transformation

31:57 From Alone to Community: A Journey of Accountability

32:52 Navigating Life Transitions and Embracing New Challenges

33:09 The Struggle with Community and the Lone Wolf Mentality

35:06 Exploring Relationships and the Desire for Family

36:57 The Importance of Self-Work and Vulnerability

43:30 Caring for My Father and Facing Personal Judgments

47:59 Reflecting on My Brother's Journey and Its Impact

53:01 The Pain of Unseen Relationships and the Path to Healing

56:14 Concluding Thoughts and Gratitude

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In this special episode, we turn the mic toward Inner Rebel co-host Melissa Bauknight — and what unfolds is a deeply honest, powerful conversation about identity, expansion, and the kind of community that changes everything.

Melissa shares the story of her becoming — from high-achieving corporate sales leader silently battling imposter syndrome, to spiritual seeker, coach, and ultimately the founder of The Nova, a global women’s collective redefining leadership, belonging, and power. Through her lived experience, she offers a grounded and generous roadmap for what it really takes to come home to yourself — especially when the world you grew up in taught you to conform.

This episode explores what it means to be truly seen — and how that simple act can unlock lifetimes of untapped potential. We talk about the role of chosen family, the discomfort of being witnessed in your fullness, and the sacred rebellion of building a life that reflects who you really are.

If you’ve ever felt like the black sheep, or you’re navigating your own next chapter — in business, identity, or belonging — Melissa’s story is a reminder that transformation is rarely linear, community is never optional, and who you’re becoming is already in motion.

TOPICS:

• Navigating spiritual awakening and expanding beyond the rules we’re raised by
• How being witnessed changes everything
• The slow, courageous unraveling of identity and friendships
• The birth of a soul business rooted in alignment and integrity
• Redefining belonging through chosen family and conscious community
• Why community is oxygen — and how to create the village you long for

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At 17, Ruthie Lindsey was hit by an ambulance and given a 1% chance of survival. What followed was decades of physical and emotional pain, masked by perfectionism and a desperate need to be liked. In this bold and tender episode, Ruthie shares how she slowly dismantled her pain story, abandoned the “basic bitch” mask she used to wear, and began reclaiming joy, creativity, and weirdness on her own terms. We talk about trauma, truth-telling, the deep grief that followed fame, and learning to live in your body again. This one is for anyone who has lost themselves in trying to be lovable—and is ready to come home to their weird, wonderful self.

Topics:

• Chronic pain and trauma healing
• The cost of people-pleasing and perfectionism
• Letting go of being “likable”
• Creativity as reclamation
• Choosing joy after survival
• Living without needing to perform
• Beauty, grief, and aliveness
• Rebuilding identity after collapse

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What if the “good girl” in you isn’t your personality—it’s a nervous system survival strategy? In this rich and revealing episode, embodiment coach Beth Clayton breaks down the “good girl” protector archetypes and how they live in the body. We talk about how early conditioning around approval and belonging shapes our adult patterns of people-pleasing, achievement, and avoidance—and what it takes to begin reclaiming choice. This conversation is both tender and activating, especially for women who are ready to trade performance for presence and rewrite the rules of their own lives.

Topics:

• “Good girl” conditioning + protector archetypes
• Nervous system work + body-based healing
• Patriarchal performance patterns
• Embodiment as rebellion
• Shame, self-worth, and visibility
• Unlearning people-pleasing
• Power, softness, and reclaiming voice
• Self-liberation through body awareness

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