Hello, everybody. Thanks for joining Clouded Compass. Welcome back in last week's episode, I spoke about women in prison. And I want to talk today about our own internal prison, which most people I have met in life have. And it's such a fascinating thing for me to talk about. Because there are so many angles to discuss it from one of the angles that I will jump into is the fact that so many people are living in prison like conditions in their brain.

Here's how I know. It looks like playing small, it looks like self doubt. It looks like low self esteem. It looks like depression, anxiety, pick your diagnoses, it looks like chronic pain, it looks like fear, it looks like people pleasing, hyper vigilance, etc, and so on. And often, the internal prison is a result of very, very, very good survival skills, skills that taught us how to survive in threatening environments. And I'm not, we don't need to all be living in a war, but I'm talking about emotional threads. And so this would this is another way for saying internal censorship, in case but I call it internal imprisonment. Because it is because we're held hostage because we're in the basement of the floor of shame, basement of shame on the floor, without our own blankets, and our own heat in our own windows and our own life and light in sustenance and nurturing and nourishment.

Why? Because we withhold it from ourselves.

Why? Because that's what we were taught to do.

Why? Because we live in a culture that says to the individual, you only have worth if you can do something for me. And that's a really blatant way to put it. But when you think about the systems we work in, we're in a very capitalistic society. And I have no issues with capitalism, when I have issues with though, is rampant gross, dehumanizing capitalism.

I have issues with a patriarchy not because I hate men, but because it dehumanizes men and women, I have issues with racism, not because it dehumanizes a certain population, but because it dehumanizes us all. And with those conditions, we I have issues with white supremacy not because I hate white people. I am a white person, and I am surrounded by white people, I love many white people. It is the fact of what that system does to us all.

And so let's talk about that. Let's talk about what freedom is there. When we continue to allow conditions that try to erase us. If you go on social media, what is the big? What's the big? How do we know we've made it in the world? Well, we've got a viral social media posts. Ladies and gentlemen, that does not mean that what that person had to say had value. That means that it had a collective vote of affirmation, much like intellection, it does not mean that you're suddenly more valuable to the world. In fact, in many ways, you might be less valuable. But that's neither here nor there. And no, you're never less valuable. Kim Kardashian has no more value than you do. And furthermore, I wouldn't want her life. There's not I don't want to live on camera, I just have zero interest.

And so when you're trying to push to be, quote, unquote, successful, I want you to ask yourself what that looks like for you. What does success look like for you? So I asked my clients when they come in? Where do you want to be in one to three months? What do you want your life to look like? What do you want it to feel like? How do you want to be different? So that we have an intention. So if success for you is getting a financial goal, we've talked before about goals and expectations, set the goal. But let's let go of the attachment to the expectation because that is where we start to have shame.

If your goal is a million dollars, and you make it there and you think you're better because of it. That's I don't know if that's really the value of the million dollars. If you make a million dollars, and you make 100 towards that million, and you feel a shift in yourself, within, and you can pay off your debts and all that stuff, that's, that to me, I wou