Into the Mic

I worry about people seeing the things that I make. Whether or not I will get eyes. For me, it is better to think about the experience someone will have if someone sees the things that I make instead of always worrying about someone actually seeing my stuff or not. Hope this gets you thinking and that you are doing well. Appreciate you. 

One of the things that keeps me stuck currently is that I cannot take my private learning method and make it more public. I fail a lot when I am learning and growing, and to be able to do the same in a more forward facing way is the area that I need to start exploring in my current life. 

Your life is not the thing that needs to change. It is the perception of it that needs to change. And weirdly that perception change is the very thing that will end up changing it. I have been viewing my life poorly and I need to see it differently.

Looking to oneself can be frustrating and scary, at least for me. But it is worthwhile because some of the things that you discover could shift your life and the way that you see things. Thank you to all of those that have made during my many years of living. Hopefully I can join you. 

Slowly trying to upload more often and more consistently. Hope everyone is doing well and thank you so much to those willing to listen to my rambling. <3

Wanted to apologize for the audio that is really bad this episode? Don't know if these are even called episodes anymore. I want to try this again and this time hopefully keep trying. I am kinda digging the ambient car noise in the background.

I made a TikTok with my face on it, then I start talking about nonsense. That's it.

So I have been lying to my parents about going to college for a while now and every time I think about telling them the truth it feels like my whole life would be ruined, the stability of it. As I am typing this I have come a long way in understanding that fear and as well as gaining the subtle strength to tell them. It also amaze me to hear this recording back and realize the deference in mentality I had back then and what I have now so I am truly grateful to the past me for doing this recordings so I can look back on them and reflect. I also hope that these will help you in anyway possible because I know that seeing others struggle through the same issues that I have always helped. 

P.S. Don't you dare stop being you cute, you can't but don't even try  

Even though you know what to do and how to do it, things are easy when you go and do them. Despite all that trying is something that does not require you to fail or succeed all that it requires is for you to take action, this is something that I have been learning for the past couple months and it is not simple taking action. I hope that you are doing well and hopefully you can see a little bit that sometimes trying is all you need to do. 

I have been having this problem, which is still a problem, that whenever I see someone else doing the same thing as me but better and in less time it affects me. For some reason or another I seem to compare myself to how good others do in the things that I am doing as well as how fast they do it in. When I first started drawing I would see other artist's pieces and I would go and check to see if they out their age and whenever they were younger than me  it would question myself as to why I wasted so much time. I currently am in a better place (that place being "not caring") because it got annoying and took away time from me learning about myself. I hope you guys can take something from this, relate to it in some way, and know that you are not the only one feeling this way. Please stay cute cause its my life force (currently the only male succubus).