If you’ve ever wondered whether God actually gave you free will or if this is all just one big predestined simulation… same. This episode is a raw, unfiltered journal-style wrestle with God — featuring heavy theology, honest confusion, tiny sparks of revelation, and my service dog Zola eating a sock in the background like it’s a holy act of worship.

We talk about:

• Predestination vs. free will — is this rigged??
• Sarah’s impatience, Hagar’s pain, and realizing I am both of them
• What “being made new” actually means — the non-aesthetic version
• Why God didn’t just reset the world after Adam & Eve messed up

This is not a sermon. It’s not cleaned-up. It’s me asking the questions out loud — and somehow discovering that wrestling with God might actually be holy.

If you feel too real, too angry, too confused to sound like a “good Christian”… Pull up a chair. You’re safe here.

SHOW NOTES (for below the description or website/blog embed)

Mentioned concepts in this episode:

• Romans 8:28–30
• Regeneration vs. behavior modification
• Why Eden wasn’t the end — and why New Creation is different
• God’s grace toward both Sarah and Hagar