In all honesty, we think that as Christians we are supposed to be a certain way and if we aren't, we have dissapointed God . This isn't true y'all and it should be for everyone, You have to learn to move and if you mess up Repent , Seek God ,laugh with him and remember his goodness. He didn't name Isaac -with no meaning . Isaac meant to laugh,to laugh even after being barren, even after disobeying his word and even after hurting for years thinking maybethe promise won't come.Why? Because God still Loves you and He would love to discipline you and on top of this laughter brings out a cheerful heart.So remain joyful because its a process. Oh and I forgot the episode so forgive me on that one.