ever since i took a break from youtube for over 1 or 2 months to focus on college life, i couldn't take it out of my mind that i am a content creator. it's something that i tried to let go and think about my personal life, college life, and just being private. but something was just "ghosting" me, and it was youtube. i couldn't let go of it. i knew this was going to be part of my identity. so this is why it's hard for me to let go of youtube.