In 2008, Jason Rogers won a silver medal at the Beijing Olympics, and soon after he was named one of the most eligible bachelors in New York City. He was the total package: celebrated for his athleticism, rewarded for his impressive masculinity. 10 years later, Jason revealed in an essay for Men’s Health that he had harbored a crippling secret for his entire adult life, a secret that put him at odds with the traditional male athlete identity. Jason opens up about the pain he felt for years living up to an identity that was never the right fit, and the work he has done to come into his own.