Journals from the Jungle—stories from my recent travels, drawn straight from my journals. These reflections trace a return to an embodied, authentic self through nature, adventure, rest, and the unraveling of old beliefs. Along the way, I explore freedom, pleasure, love, and the strength that comes from shedding what no longer serves us—offered in the hope of inspiring a more vital, freely lived life.

2:30 a.m. I wake up and look for him. No. I feel so sad. But, I shouldn’t at all. It’s just a day, but I do—as if, or because, it could go like this. He could just quit me.

I sent his photo to my friend. She said, get out. You have the same smile. I’m not allowed to be heartbroken until he gives me a reason to be. Believe the positive fantasy, which is still just as real as the alternative. Trust the past.

I cry on the beach this morning because I see this place that I had yearned for so desperately, and I’m on it, in it. I walk home on the sky. I think: I was right. In this—not void, but froth.

I feel myself being a vessel for experience. These lows are what I put myself through in order to have the highs. It takes a lot of endurance, courage, pain, tolerance—but it’s worth it. It feels very helpful to recognize this moment as that.

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