Content Warning: miscarriage; traumatic birth; mental health problems; hell anxiety This week’s guest is Julia. Julia is the clever mind behind @painfulpostchristianprayers on Instagram. Julia grew up in a German mostly-atheist environment. The hostility, however, she saw for religion made it all the morning appealing. As she came of age, she found herself confirmed in the German Lutheran church but attending and loving a very American Baptist church. Julia was all-in but soon found some doctrines were a bit much, especially the teachings about Hell. For years, Julia threw herself into American Church World—she read the entire Bible, went to university to become a missionary doctor, met her spouse at church, even read Joshua Harris’s books! But life has a way of forcing some to wonder if the God they believe in really is as kind as they’ve been told. After one incredibly trying event after another, Julia could no longer see God’s “goodness.” She began to see through the “incredibly ridiculous explanations” people gave when God did not come through. Julia is in a very different place now, and her online presence provides an outlet for the anger that had been pent-up for so long. It has also brought her community. She is far from alone, thousands are waking up to the lies and empty promises of Christianity. And that is what is what humans truly need—not a distant pretend deity but real human connection and relationship. Interact For quotes, recommendations and more see the full episode show notes https://gracefulatheist.com/2022/09/25/julia-deconstruction-of-a-doctor/ Join the Deconversion Anonymous Facebook group https://www.facebook.com/groups/deconversionSecular Grace https://gracefulatheist.com/2016/10/21/secular-grace/Deconversion https://gracefulatheist.com/2017/12/03/deconversion-how-to/Deconstruction https://gracefulatheist.com/2017/12/03/deconversion-how-to/#deconstruction/ Attribution "Waves" track written and produced by Makaih Beats https://makaihbeats.net/