Jülide’s Playroom

welcome to books and pulsations, today's pulse is erotic.

I talked about what audre lorde says about erotic, and briefly mentioned works of anais nin and georges bataille.

next pulse is, writing.

In this episode of Books and Pulsations, I speak with urban designer, professor and author Nick Dunn about his book Dark Futures: When the Lights Go Down. Together we explore what darkness means beyond fear and absence, touching on gendered experiences of the night, ecological thinking, imagination, and how we might re-inhabit the nocturnal world differently. Rather than treating darkness as something to eliminate, Dunn invites us to consider it as a space of possibility, relation, and more-than-human encounter.

You can read my short reflection here:

In this episode of Books and Pulsations, I speak with Liana Psarologaki about her book Site-Reliant Immersive Experiences, her artistic work, and her interdisciplinary research across immersion, architecture, and art.
Reading her book was an immersive experience in itself, and in this conversation we reflect on how sites, atmospheres, and spatial relations shape the way we sense and think.

In this episode, I embark on a journey through the blurred lines of fiction and reality. Joined by art professional and curator Irem Sezer, we explore the cabinets of Orhan Pamuk’s Museum of Innocence in Istanbul.

Is a museum merely a collection of objects, or is it a living, breathing cartography of human (and non-human) relationality? We dive deep into the heart of Kemal’s obsession, questioning how a novel can manifest into a physical space and how objects anchor our fragile identities.

In this conversation, we navigate:

• The Fluidity of Collecting: From the "Cabinet of Curiosities" to personal hoarding, how do we curate our lives?

• Nostalgia Across Generations: Feeling a longing for times we never personally experienced.

• Spiral Time: Breaking away from linear narratives to understand memory and experience in Istanbul’s "in-between" society.

• The Missing Gaze: Reflecting on the absence of the female perspective within the collection.

Deconstructing maternal narratives and the search for the feminine 'I.'

"When did you become his?" With this haunting question from Vigdis Hjorth's Is Mother Dead?, I begin an archaeological excavation into the structures that have long buried the feminine "I." This episode is a journey beneath the surface of silence, seeking the authentic self hidden within the maternal bond.

What I explore in this episode:

• Freud's discussion of subjecthood, that the subject can only be masculine

• Unearthing the Vertical History: How patriarchal structures (the vertical) have suppressed the horizontal, lived truths of women's existence.

• Literature as Excavation: Using the act of reading and writing to navigate through layers of generational silence.

• The Mother-Daughter Mirror: Examining how the bond—and the break—with the mother serves as a central site for understanding female subjectivity.

• Reclaiming the "I": Drawing on the philosophical insights of Luce Irigaray to deconstruct identity beyond the traditional Freudian gaze.

This episode is an invitation to listen closely. What lies beneath these structures is not just a story. It is the key to our revival.

• Read the full essay on Substack: https://julideda.substack.com/p/beyond-survival-the-revival-of-the

• Follow for more reading & writing on Instagram: @julideda

• Featured Texts: Is Mother Dead, If Only by Vigdis Hjorth, This Sex Which Is Not One by Luce Irigaray, Simple Passion and Getting Lost by Annie Ernaux

In this opening episode, I invite you to set the game together with me. Starting from the question “Feminism is not humanism,” I reflect on posthuman feminist philosophy, inspired by Rosi Braidotti, to rethink what it means to be human, a subject, and a being among others.

This is not an academic lecture, but an invitation to play. The game we set here does not aim to attack the existing world order, but to create a flow and a leakage within it. From inside, not outside. Through cracks, connections, and relations that are often overlooked.

Using the metaphor of a concrete building, I think through beings and forces that resist confinement: human and non-human lives, plants, animals, mycelium, waters, and movements that quietly but persistently reshape the world. This podcast is about bonds rather than subjects, about relations rather than identities, and about creating space for more-than-human worlds to emerge.

I am reaching out my hand to form a connection, to think, feel, and play together through the currents that bind us.