“ I can’t sink forever. I swam until I could stand the waves. Regaining strength and momentum, and my heart as well. Now pushing my mind into forward direction or thinking. I look back on this journey remembering how I was just sitting pool side pretty. Not knowing whether or not I needed to be jumped in or pushed in. Falling short of my lessons. Overflowing and needing a moment to breathe, in-hale exhale. The waters and waves became too heavy too strong too deep too fast. I couldn’t keep up with the pressure of having it all together. I think I allowed myself to fall in too deep not knowing if I could come back up. One would say why allow yourself to sink if you don’t know where it’ll take you. But all I know was I couldn’t sink forever.”