I cared for my daughter like I cared for most men I've loved. I served. My capacity for love was bottomless. I was a reservoir of kindness, stocked with unimaginable patience. My giving was spontaneous and effortless, a pleasure until I couldn't do it another second and I wanted them to make their own goddamn sandwiches and leave me the fuck alone. Having a child leave for college should be the best-case scenario for someone like me.