024 Lapses and Relapse - Let's Reverse Obesity

In this episode I come back and talk about what has been going on since October 7, 2013.  That was the date of my last Podcast.  And what and who started me back down the right path to continuing my journey.

Oct 7th was my last podcast.

Since then I have moved twice.

Started working for TV Talk and had to adjust to working the graveyard shift.

With all of the craziness going on in my life I started to back slide.  Then I felt guilty, like a fraud, a failure.  I knew what to do, I woke up every morning and made a commitment to get back on track, but by the end of the day I would sabotage myself and the feeling of guilt and remorse would start all over again.

And as I reflect on why this happened I keep going back to one word. “Pride”

Pride is a killer.  I couldn’t come on here and let you all know I was failing.  I was in trouble.

I would retreat back into myself with my best friend.  Food.

So there is two very special people in my life I am so grateful for.  Nancy Walters and Holly Rose.

Nancy is a true blessing from God.  Nancy is a life coach.  You can find her at http://newyouwellnessllc.com As much as I try to quit Nancy won’t let me.  Trust me I have put her through the paces.  We would talk and set up a plan and she would have me motivated and then the next day, I would slide back into my self inflicted depression.

The blessing and the curse of Nancy is that she is a fighter.  For fun Nancy trains in MMA.  So she is tough on the inside and the outside.  Nancy doesn’t not quit.  Nancy should have kicked me to the curb months ago for all my shenanigans and she hasn’t.

Now Holly Rose has been a guest on this podcast.  If you go back to episode 15 Holly and I got a chance to talk about our journey.  Holly is such an inspiration to me.  If you want to check out Holly’s blog and I highly recommend you do it’s at http://300poundsdown.com

So this morning as I was checking out Facebook I saw Holly had posted another blog. And Like I always do I grabbed a cup of coffee and when to read her blog.

But this time she did something different.

Something so powerful, so raw, and to me so motivating.

Holly posted a video or a Vlog of herself as she was going through a craving.  And because I have lived it so many times myself my heart just broke for her.  I understood.  I understood her pain, her frustration and her courage to let others inside to share this emotional state.  She just started the video and started sharing.

Holly showed me that I wasn’t alone.  Holly showed me it’s ok to fail, but it’s not ok to give up.

The fear of failure is failure.

Failure is acceptable, what is not acceptable is quitting.  Quitting is failing.

So of course I had so sit down and look at why I backslid.

Lapses and relapse are common.

They are common while you relearning new habits and attitudes.  It’s like dribbling  a basketball with your left hand if you are right handed.  You can do it, but it really feels unnatural and uncomfortable.  If you do not continue to practice dribbling with your opposite hand you will go back to dribbling with your right hand.

As you start to form new healthier living habits you are still very susceptible to falling back to your old habits.

You can be drawn back to what you did naturally until you practice and strengthen your new habits..  This could mean that you have unresolved issues that need work.

One of the signs you are in trouble is the feeling of guilt.  As soon you losing guilt free eating.  As soon as guilt come up you are setting yourself up to return to old eating habits.