Insomniac, I lay in bed with my eyes open,

How they act, I gotta watch watch my back,

Hoping, cardiac arrest, is why, my chest feels tight

But I'm a hypochondriac, so I never feel right,

Sick and twisted, cuz of the things I've done,

some of these things can't be undone,

When a bells rung, it can't be unrung,

I've saved lives, but I feel unsung

Use to run, the streets, like a track star,

Back when, I thought I'd grow, up to a rap star,

That or a trap god, back then, I had to scrap hard,

you couldn't walk through my backyard,

I was so confrontational,

Irrational, violence, casual

Now a days, I wanna be inspirational

My story to tell, how I avoided a cell,

How I tried and I failed, with persistence excelled

Relentless, cuz I'm driven to win

I'm gonna knock till you let me in,

I'm passing it, passionate about giving it back

Not forcing it, I just sit in the back

truth is, I'm bridging the gap

If you get it, I know, I watch how you act

How you react, set you loose, watch how you stack,

Staring at the clock, watching, watch time slip by

Reminiscing bought the block, and how I thought I'd die,

Before the age of 23, if he could see me now

The young me, could never be me now,

I had to learn to crawl, so I could walk

I had to learn words so I could talk,

Those Life lessons, couldn't ask for help then,

I had too many questions, and no direction

For protection, I had to isolate,

Build walls, Cuz in my section, 8,

We stayed high, and our rejection rate, stayed high

election date, missed me, you ask why

Cuz they don't look like us,

what can they provide, if they ain't like us

And how can they guide us, if they ain't like me

I need someone like us to inspire me

Today, its on me, to be a visions of hope

Just listen, I hope, you catch the lesson I wrote,

It's chess not checkers, you're necks in a rope

You can hang all day, I just want you to know,

You got a choice, you gotta voice, you just gotta choose

I want you win, and not lose

Be the next one, to pull the next one up

Build your circle and watch your checks come up

3AM and I still can't sleep,

cold sweat and no heat, soaking wet in these sheets,

Must of dozed off, but my demons don't sleep

They just keep, me, counting these sheep

Woke, I'm so broke, but I hide that pain,

There's a storm inside my brain, my tears the rain

a man, just can't complain, it's insane,

Everyday I just maintain

Remain stoic, I'm struggling but you'd don't know it

Men, have emotions too, but can't show it.

You got a fam to feed, so don't blow it,

If you ask me, It's heroic

I'm fine, but the truth is, I'm not that great

I stay starving, and I got that plate,

Overflowing, even though, I just ate,

stress keep coming cuz life don't wait,

trust me life don't wait

Watching shit falling off my plate,

it too much, But I'm suppose to hold this weight,

I smile and say I'll be straight

Cuz I just gotta get through one more night

I'm hurting, but I'll be alright

It's dark, but the moon's so bright

And one day, I'll be able to sleep all night