**TRIGGER WARNING** This episode got real!! If you are Sensitive to talks of suicidal ideations, anxiety, drug use, alcoholism and depression this episode if too heavy for you!!! We hope this episodes finds you well and leaves you even better than you were when you started. We enjoyed having this real conversation. It's fun to joke, but a conversation about substance is always better!!! ** if you don’t want to do the guided meditation with us go ahead and skip to 08:32 where we actually start the podcast**