Do you have to, do you have to, do you have to, do you have to let it linger...or do you have to let it go?  What to make of 2020 and 2021 thus far?  We have been tested and I believe we should hang on to the lessons we've learned/are learning.  When we push outside our comfort zones we usually find out things we never knew about ourselves.  Same idea should be applied to your speaking role.  If you don't test your limits, how will you ever know what you could be?