To receive in this kingdom, we let go of another. I'm not saying you should let go of your experiences but let go of the pain. Forgive yourself is one way to heal. Every addiction, to be overcome is by forgiving yourself.
[8]But Daniel determined in his heart that he would not defile himself by [eating his portion of] the king's rich and dainty food or by [drinking] the wine which he drank; therefore he requested of the chief of the eunuchs that he might [be allowed] not to defile himself.
[11]For I know the thoughts and plans that I have for you, says the Lord, thoughts and plans for welfare and peace and not for evil, to give you hope in your final outcome.