(keywords) - Negative emotions, pressure, meditation retreat, un-received life, anger, death, loss, kilesa, rage, terror, loneliness, purification, stress test, Dhammacakka Sutta, the Middle Way, energy, hopefulness and despair, pseudo-mindfulness, blaming, passive aggression, boredom, backlog, barometre, self doubt, techniques, balance, being space, imagination, patient endurance, strength, dukkha, anicca, anatta, lemon, sour, self structure, Ram Dass, Ajahn Chah, vipassana, pariyatti, patipatti, aliveness, intelligence, compassion, favourable conditions.