(keywords) (slightly edited version) Buddhist meditators, compulsive thinking, self-critical, fire and smoke, irrational fear, chronically disconnected, broken glasses, fully want, open-hearted awareness, vociferous lifestyle gurus, satipatthana sutta, kayanusati, Ajahn Chah, feeling investigation, habits of denial, backlog, pressure, retreat, self harming, anxiety, assailed, zealous, resilience, humility.