It’s a new year, which is often when people begin adopting clean eating and exercise habits in the name of becoming healthy. But what happens when the habits that were once aimed at bringing health are taken too far? Disordered eating, body image issues, and orthorexia (an obsession with eating foods that one considers healthy) can develop, sabotaging true emotional, mental and physical health.

Maddy Moon, an author, podcast host, retreat leader and transformational life coach, was involved all of the above, and when she decided it was time to quit, the first step was realizing that the same force was driving all of those behaviors: the need for control. Listen to the story of her journey out of the realms of pain and into the realms of pleasure where she found love for herself and her body.