I believe it was a picture that made things click into place. It was intended to be funny, but to me, it was more bittersweet. In it, two detectives were shaking their heads at a woman who got crushed to death by the books on her nightstand - the ones she piled up for a special occasion, yet never getting the chance to finish them. I decided that I didn't want to be that woman.

This episode is also available as a blog post: https://queenofshortromance.wordpress.com/2021/06/15/magic-mystery-and-sexual-tension/