Getting a diagnosis that you never thought in a million years that you would get. Another condition you have to learn to deal with, like with makeup. You find a brand you love and you stay with it permanently or you find something close to it to continue, but unlike the condition there is no cure just many surgeries and treatments. The type of feeling is grief because I’m not losing anyone, but who I used to be. Makeup is more like a tool to try new things not to look more beautiful, because you are beautiful already. It’s a way to learn to cope with news. You are getting closer to completing this four year long puzzle piece.