Have we truly examined what failure means in our lives? It can strike at various levels and in different circumstances, but for some, it can escalate to a point that leads to unthinkable actions. I’m not a psychologist; I’m just someone who has faced the depths of failure so profoundly that I once thought life was no longer worth living.

In that moment of despair, I decided to spend my remaining money on a night at one of Jakarta’s most luxurious hotels, and I went up to the rooftop. Although I had never smoked before, I purchased a cigarette to mark the occasion. From that height, I watched the luxury cars glide into the hotel’s entrance, a stark reminder of the life I felt I had lost.

For three hours, I stood there, wrestling with my thoughts and emotions. I asked myself: how could I possibly find a way back? This episode will reveal the answer to that question and shed light on the path to resilience.