Most of my life boys only liked me for my booty

Like Judy

That’s the only role I play in his movie

Can’t get thru to he

He lose me

Then the cycle play around again you see

And I’m sure my future husband out there just shaking his head

And god shaking his head

And the devil laughing

and the angels shakin their head

AND I JUST WANNA BE MARRIED

I said

Hell I rather be divorced instead

Cuz at least I will have known I had a shot

How many bodies u caught?

Damn... I forgot.

I been playing these games a decade & a half

And if I sat down and thought about it

I guess I could do the math

See 1 plus 1 is 2

And us two making two

That’s suppose to be 4 ever

But I can’t barely carry the one

I guess I’m no fun

Or maybe I’m only meant for fun

Maybe that’s why I’m never the one

I was just made the amusements for the boys to play on

Lay on

Don’t stay too long

Wait long enough to ghost so you don’t feel like an asshole

But leaving every door open

So you can escape thru your fox hole

It’s not his fault tho

I loved too easy

It’s not his fault no

I let my loneliness get the best of me

It’s not his fault

I’m just not the one

I’m just dumb

I light, I inhale

Let the numbness come

Whoa whoa whoa whoa WHOA

BEFORE I LET THAT NEGATIVITY GET ON THE GO

I let that go.

Inhale

Now go. GO

go

Can’t nobody love like me

Touch like me

Hug like me

Thug like me

Love made the broken woman

Whole

Destroying demanding ego

Back bending down

Falling apart to

Rise up and only take the healthy pieces

Shedding generational thoughts that have been nooses dragging ancestors by the neck

Causing neglect

Causing generational effects

Bible verses

Twisted into curses

That created an evil more sly than the devil

Because it was draped in a white robe

And yes we did what we were told

But I couldn’t do what I was told

No I’m just a bit too bold

A bit too wild

Imaginative like a child

And I live in this fantasy world

Where we all smile

And enjoy each other

And when you take a lover

You keep your lover

And if you do it right in this lifetime

In the next you get to grow up with them

And grow old with them

High school sweethearts in the 50s

Only this time you’re on Mars

And the ground tastes like candy bars

And he wears leather jackets all the time

It’s so hot

And you’ll never be forget

And when I’m gone you’ll forever be missin me

And when I’m there you always wanna be touchin n kissin me

And what’s on your mind is never a mystery

But for now

these daydreams will just have to do

But for now

I’m just gonna pretend that

he’s

you

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