Matthew Karchner chronicles his life of being raised in a Christian family. There was a period of his earlier life that he did not feel as masculine nor adequate as his male friends. That resulted in him withdrawing from others and “exploring” avenues of feeling better about himself. Through a brief exploration period, he entered into the gay lifestyle that provided a “counterfeit freedom.” The reality of his devious life culminated in a letter of admission that started his journey to recovery with