If there is one thing I learned  while working at my pretend job, it is to understand that I have to lower my expectations when it comes to happiness.

I am someone who likes to provide value, someone who needs to be a part of something greater than myself as my own needs and wants do not matter. This is the curse of my personality type and my survival instinct. When it comes to playing it safe, sometimes you have to sacrifice all your hopes and dreams to make sure the pain doesn't happen for another day.