Eph.2 vs 4 But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, vs .5 made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions--it is by grace you have been saved. (NIV). From the scripture above, no amount of SIN, LUST, GUILT or DARK ADDICTION. That God himself can't forgive. His words says by his grace we have been saved. Move with this consciousness that he is holding your past against you. If you confess it before him, he has a big heart to let it go.