Comedian Andy Haynes sits down with Forrest to talk addiction, anxiety spirals, mindfulness, Buddhism, panic attacks, and the beautiful stupidity of trying to grow as a person when your brain absolutely refuses to cooperate. They get into relapse thinking, ego, meditation, relationships, and the "I swear I'm working on myself" moments every addict knows too well. It's honest, funny, and packed with real stories about fear, recovery, self-improvement, and why the brain seems engineered to sabotage you right when things are going well. 🎧 If you've ever tried to be a better human and immediately fell on your face, this episode is for you. 🔔 Subscribe for weekly episodes on addiction, recovery, mental health, and comedy. Timestamps: 00:00 Intro 03:03 Forrest's "another problem": Unsubscribe hell 04:45 Meet Andy Haynes 06:01 Andy's problem: alcohol, weed & the hole inside 07:59 First sports bet in Vegas and instant "genius" 10:01 How gambling hijacks watching sports 13:06 Forrest's first gambling memories & college bookies 16:03 Teenage blackouts, getting hit by a car & waking up in mom's bed 20:06 Busy hands, depression that won't let you sleep & idle addict brains 23:16 Marine biologist Forrest, drugs, bookies & manatees 31:04 Climate change, dead lakes & why manatees freeze 37:04 Rat studies, idle minds & how addiction rewires memory 41:32 Structure, marriage, 12-steps & trading chaos for routines 54:00 Weed, "California sober" & 90 meetings in 90 days 1:01:27 Coke-era comedy stories & why the 80s would've killed us 1:07:07 Fatherhood, being of service & advice for young comics in addiction (plus suicide hotlines) 🎙️ Find Andy Haynes: 🔗 Website: https://www.imandyhaynes.com/ 📸 Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/imandyhaynes/?hl=en ▶️ YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@AndyHaynes