In Episode 3, I talk about relapsing during a major work trip, coming home, and realizing alcohol may be the hardest addiction for me to beat. Even while drinking, smoking, and staying highly functional, something underneath is clearly breaking. I also open up about starting ADHD medication, how much it helps, and how it’s changing the way I understand my brain, my cravings, and my addiction. This is an honest episode about relapse, rationalization, and trying to fight back.