Whenever I heard people leaving the church, I was always baffled, especially when they were “the strong, faithful, stalwart” ones.

Why would anyone leave the most beautiful gift in all the world? How could anyone do it

• They must be deceived.
• Their testimony just wasn’t strong enough.
• They didn’t have enough faith.
• They wanted to commit sin.

These were my thoughts….

…no doubt some of you may be thinking the same thing about me.

I considered myself to be one of the strong, faithful, and stalwart ones. I had a desire to be immovable, faithful, and obedient like Nephi and the sons of Heleman.

I bore my testimony often. I used my singing voice to share my deep beliefs. We raised our children with the gospel surrounding us.

I was all in...until I wasn't.

[This was recorded by the host in the spring of 2022, and touches briefly on her departure from Mormonism* after over fifty years of being an all-in member.]

*The official name is The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.