I've been doing lots of writing and recording, but questioning myself about sharing. Life feels kind of intense lately, and that stops me from following through on sharing what sometimes feels like too much vulnerability. It's also true to say that sometimes I wait for things to settle that I've made a podcast episode about -before I share. Sometimes that wait time makes me see it's better not to share, and sometimes it feels like the timing is perfect because of waiting. I have a few of those, that might soon be "old enough", that I can upload and stay comfortable.

It's accurate to say that I make this podcast for myself. I reference episodes probably more than anyone, for multiple reasons. But I do share with people I know and meet, so I have to find balance with what I want, and what I do.

This episode isn't necessarily so much about self-awareness as it is just audio that matters to me. This is the first time I heard my Grandma's voice.

My mother is my everything, and her parents were so important to her. My mother talks about them often, and she was so keen for me to listen to this recording when she found it. As I listened I thought it was fascinating how different their world is from the one we are in now. My grandpa would have loved to be alive now and if he were he'd have a podcast of his own! This is the grandpa that I am so much alike. I even have his nose.

Later in the audio they describe some tourist trips they went on, and some relatives of my Grandpa's Mothers they visited. Maybe this will be a different kind of podcast that is a welcome change from the norm.

Sending you my love if you're reading this.