Just realized I somehow completely skipped over how the mental symptoms played a major role in my college journey. Made the already hard enough college transition x100, kinda "fell off the grid" from family & scared them through my depression so much that my grandparents bought me a train ticket to force me to come home for the weekend (was the best thing & finally learned important tricks for depression like NEVER just stay in your room), that depression can change, forcing myself to somehow kinda become an extrovert 😱, FUN story of 1st public panic attack at TSwift's concert, etc. So for a future ep!

I don’t even know if I explain it well enough, but this will just have to do for now to start explaining what happened. Stick around, I will expand on the details and experiences in future podcasts. Let me know if there’s anything you’d especially want more info about. This was recorded March 2nd into the 3rd, 2023; added notes in the beginning from around September 10, 2023. Finished editing September 17 & 19, 2023.

Shoutout to my dad opening a Coke Zero in the background of the beginning notes (what happens when I actually record during the day… hence the scratchy low voice—also because I had just woken up lol). 😂

Tried a new thing. Thought the topic(s) could use some uplifting by some great background music in the first and last ten minutes. The 1st songs are beautiful covers by Leon Alex (“Skinny Love” and “I’m Just Ken” [lol] 😌). Here’s a shorter and possibly even more romantic version—it’s just gorgeous: https://open.spotify.com/track/7recXytpGLyZRl4KJ0oT0d?si=7baa0873d20c43f6 Editing glitch at the end, supposed to be Where Are You Now instrumental not silence oops 🙃

Intro/Outro Song: Until We Get There by Lucius (yes, from New Girl 🥰). Please check out the song in its actuality!

Mod’s dairy free cheese is at Target! It’s called Daeya. Update, just saw this hours ago may explain some things too idk at least brings awareness. Mold exposure’s effect on health needs to be looked into even more: https://kfor.com/news/there-needs-to-be-some-sort-of-accountability-former-ou-student-sues-university-over-mold-exposure/

Listen to the next one to hear the rest of that “thought” I mention around 41:00 😬 Texas IS failing me. 😔 Checkout Justin Baldoni’s Man Enough (and he definitely is THE dream man so take his advice 💯).

Ironic talking about that special moment with MyMy and losing her (also tend to sing “my my my my my” from Skinny Love all the time) because I’m uploading this on the fourth anniversary week of unexpectedly losing her. Almost did on the very day, but had to get other things done before working a wedding. (Let’s just say, I especially hate Friday the 13th—sorry Blondie, I don’t find them to be lucky 💔.)

I wish I knew what I was saying at the very end too but that’s when my laptop died on me lololol. It was like, “okay nope you’re done, go to sleep” 🤪 Something about being able to see the issues, or maybe even benefit, myself?? No clue probably ended up being an important reflection, just my luck 🙈

Speaking of health, this is a helpful page (as always, double check info with RELIABLE NOT BIASED sources): https://www.instagram.com/unbiasedscipod/

Let's keep the conversations going: https://discord.com/channels/1089109562260459611/1089109562872844311

xoxo, lizzie 💕