Outside of my salt cravings and obsession of sunflower seeds, I had had a physiologically challenged rollercoaster of ups and downs based off of my concerns and all of the negative media coverage about black women mortality rates. We are always compared to white women. Everything that I read compared us to white women. Its completely scared me and made it difficult for me to decide what type of birthing experience I wanted. So in a nutshell, this is how it all went down.