In this episode, I get candid about my journey with eros, sex, feeling sexual shut-down and closed, motherhood, and the major shifts that took place after I had a baby.

I lay out some of the energetic patterns that played out for me and kept me locked out of body and sexual expression. I talk about how motherhood set fire to these old patterns and allowed me to not just birth a baby, but a new version of myself.

I talk about the energetic pattern of Feminine starvation vs. Feminine nourishment and I also talk about the damsel patterns that kept me looking outside of myself for answers.

:::Show notes:::

2:48 - On vulnerability

3:30 - An invitation to my audience

5:10 - Quick fixes vs. rewiring deep patterns

7:55 - My story. Who I wanted to be vs. what life wanted for me

10:00 - Studying sexuality abroad

13:00 - Meeting my husband

14:30 - When eros began to shut down for me

17:55 - My study of somatics to "heal" and what it couldn't offer me

22:00 - Feelings of superiority killing my relationship

26:30 - Eros beginning to flourish after years of struggle

33:00 - The energetic pattern of Feminine starvation

35:25 - Thinness, restriction, and control

37:00 - The lie that eros has something to do with what our body looks like

39:55 - Embracing my hunger

41:30 - Is your nervous system dysregulated or are you just not eating enough:

42:00 - Nourishment and sexual opening

48:50 - The damsel pattern

52:00 - Motherhood and birth as an initiation into radical responsibility

58:00 - Sovereignty, responsibility, and what it has to do with our sexual opening