My Unedited Thoughts

Next year, I’m moving from Tokyo to France for two years. And right now, my French isn’t ready.

In this episode, I talk about why a 19-year-old engineering student in Tokyo decided to learn French in the first place, where I actually am with it (spoiler: the subjunctive is winning), and the one thing that genuinely scares me about leaving.

No script, no advice. Just my unedited thoughts.

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No script, no notes — just working through one question 異邦人 left me with: what does it actually feel like when the people closest to you are the ones who quietly cut you out of your own life? Getting into it off one small, offhand moment where the main character realizes she was the last to know. Light spoiler note: touches a personal loss and a family betrayal reveal, nothing about how it ends.

My Unedited Thoughts. One question per episode. Today's fromNorwegian Wood by Murakami — why do we hold onto people who are alreadygone? No script, no notes, just where I landed. Light spoilers, onescene only.

My Unedited Thoughts. First full season, not a book or film —Suits, Season 1. The guy fakes his way into a top law firm with nodegree. Would I actually do that? Honestly wasn't sure. No script, nonotes, full spoilers for the whole season from a few minutes in.

Ep. 2 of My Unedited Thoughts. This one's a film, not a book — TheTerminal, Tom Hanks, Spielberg. No script, no notes, just my honestreaction. Full spoilers from a few minutes in.

Hello, Im Shay and this is my second time recording my podcast. Im trying to learn fast but it is still difficult. I hope you enjoy this.

Book, movie, or live show 1 of 72. First time properly reading Murakami, even though I'm Japanese. Spoilers ahead, I talk about what actually happens,

I've spent weeks trying to find the "perfect" format to start this podcast — and that's exactly why I never started. This episode is me finally hitting record instead of planning. I talk about why I kept getting stuck, what actually happened this week trying to figure out how to record and edit, and a bit about who I am and what Polaryn is. No script. No polish. Just started.