Song of the day: Me and My Husband - Mitski

Actual P- Log || #1

I notice that I don't need him. I watched a stupid adventure time tikok where Jake (The Dog) was like throwing his favorite mug out of the window because he was trying to teach fin about attachment, and he said, “This is literally my favorite mug (throws it out of the window) Now it doesn't matter anymore because its gone, and not real”. This part really stuck out to me because I noticed that I cling on to my addiction of pictures, of memories thinking that if he was like this once, he can be like this again. I always want to find the good in people, and find how I can help them and make this better. I was always like that as a kid, and I noticed that I need to leave it behind because I can’t save everyone, and that's okay, because I realized, that he no longer exist to me. I also notice, the thoughts of him aren’t that consuming anymore. I no longer think of him when I wake up, or when I go to school. Not when I’m studying or around his home, and yet when I do, I just remind myself, that its just a memory, and no more than that a picture that I hold close to my heart.

↳ hope you enjoyed this silly little noticing of mine